eh

i am really tired.

and i feel like life is just a big ball of poop. but a friend of mine gave me some good advice that maybe i'll take to heart one day:

whenever the world seems to be a big ball of poop, remember, youre not the only one out there who realizes that youre standing in shit. find the people who are there with you, and keep them close.

this is true. i mean whenever you are standing in a big ball of crap you always want to have your best friend there so that you two can stand in crap together.....and get through it together.....

isn't it crazy that even know you know that there are ramifications you still say what your thinking....you say whatever is on your mind whenever you do. its pretty crazy, is it not?

don't you wish that life was just one big movie....and that when you messed up...somebody would just yell "CUT" and give you a redo...and some notes on how to do better in life....but life isn't like that at all, is it? one slip and you are down for the count. forget about the 1,2,3 , you are just done for. haha

i wish that life was like a tv show ....i would be different, my friends would be different, and i would have fun every day....and not just when recording smart music ;). (thank you j).....

i'd be like a rainbow haha!
so i'd like to thank my "friend"....but i'm giving everybody space. hehe it is sooo stressful and there are our first round of finals coming up and none of us have any idea what they would be like.....

so i will give y'all space.....

hehe
space.
spacers
space
i love words....they are so funn!!!
catchya later....

dang it didn't work....


here is the picture

hmm....interesting

i love this picture....
its ironic.
i love irony.

its life. haha

really listening

so lately i've been into a lot of indie rock / some "slower" pop songs and actually listening to the lyrics and the underlying meanings. such as one of my favorites, sophie hawkins, as i lay me down. i love the lyrics and i carry it with me everywhere. 

It felt like spring time on this February morning

In a courtyard birds were singing your praise

I'm still recalling things you said to make me feel alright

I carried them with me today

Now

As I lay me down to sleep

This I pray

That you will hold me dear

Though I'm far away

I'll whisper your name into the sky

And I will wake up happy

I wonder why I feel so high

Though I am not above the sorrow

Heavy hearted

Till you call my name

And it sounds like church bells

Or the whistle of a train

On a summer evening

I'll run to meet you

Barefoot, barely breathing

As I lay me down to sleep

This I pray

That you will hold me dear

Though I'm far away

I'll whisper your name into the sky

And I will wake up happy

Oh, darlin'

As I lay me down to sleep

Ooh La Kah Koh

This I pray

That you will hold me dear

Though I'm far away

I'll whisper your name into the sky

And I will wake up happy

It's not too near for me

Like a flower I need the rain

Though it's not clear to me

Every season has it's change

And I will see you

When the sun comes out again

As I lay me down to sleep

This I pray

That you will hold me dear

Though I'm far away

I'll whisper your name into the sky

And I will wake up happy

(Repeat twice)

I wonder why... 

When the sun comes out again... 

I will wake up happy... 

This I pray...

they just.....idk speak to me....ever had one of those songs where it is like YOUR song! or whn you have a song that is perfect for somebody else but you are too scared to tell them..... i think that music is such a huge part of our lives, even if you are one of the most un-musical person on the face of the earth. the rhythm of your heart beating stead (hopefully) and pulse of your blood flowing through your body....it just

its a way of life

whether it is show tunes or pop or heavey metal.

music can express yourself in the way that you can't even imagine.

it can say what you can't and when you are at a completely loss of what to do it can guide you.....

i know. corny.

but i just.....

as stupid as this is i know every single person does have a song...somewhere .

it captures the true essence and what you truly are....

oui, la musique, c'est ma monde. (wow that sucked)

worried

have you ever had that feeling of dread over your head? like something horrible is going to happen and you know it? then all of a sudden, everything comes crashing down on you and the worst possible things come at the most inopportune times? or when everything just seems like the world hates you. 

Makes you think about yourself. and life. and what's really going on. makes you want to change and actually get off your lazy butt and do something about it!

 i wonder.....

have you ever had any instances like this?