cesspool ....ha.

i am drowning in a cesspool (thank you zosha in history class). i am so friggin tired of all this.... i don't know if tis stress or just bad karma....but everything that could possibly good wrong decides it wants to go wrong now. like the fact that i have finals, the same week i have my last figure skating competition of the season and now i have to do the whole...practice until you can't feel your legs thing! (im too tired to say thats what she said) and i am just so overwhelmed. i have to wonder what happens if i end up doing really well on all of these things....or if i don't its kinda weird to think of what will happen...

yup... but if all goes wrong.... That will be me ---------------------->

party.
(without my head of course)

oh well. hopefully it will be done soon. so i can just get this over with and like just relax for awhile whilst on a cruise with my boys...tarek and nabeal (very close family friends since before i was born...i am the oldest and tarek is like six months younger than me...and nabeal is my sisters age). we usually do everything together over spring break. its usually fun...although i do miss their mom. she was recently taken away from us due to that damn stomach cancer....
i guess that is also why we are so close. ah well.

well...at least im doing skatin a lot this week...which is nice...ish. niceish. ha.

and now i must end with one of my favorite songs:

All my friends say that of course it's gonna get better
Gonna get better
Better better better better better better better

I never loved nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting my heart truly
I got lost
In the sounds
I hear in my mind
All these voices
I hear in my mind all these words
I hear in my mind
All of this music
And it breaks my heart
And It breaks my heart

I hear in my mind
All of these voices
I hear in my mind all these words
I hear in my mind
All of this music
And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
And It Breaks my Heart
When it Breaks my heart


i love regina.